Random Thoughts

For days and days now I have had random thoughts that I wanted to blog about but they just haven't quite made the priority list on my to do list. Apparently tonight, as my house is a mess and my list has barely been touched these random thoughts are getting to cut to the front of the line. Maybe because I am tired and just don't feel like doing anything except hang out in my bed or maybe because I just feel like writing. By nature I am a writer but I am also extremely scatter-brained (and even more so with 2 small children) so bare with me tonight.


Random Thought 1.
Every year for the last 6 years at this time of year I am flooded with emotions from my past. A past I never in a million years thought I would be this far from. It is so cliche to say that life takes you places you never imagined" but for me it is true. I was an athlete to the core and still am whether I look it or not. But I am now a wife and mother who lives in California. Another thought I never had until it happened. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade a thing that has happened in the last 6 years but man do I miss a lot from back then that I truly took for granted. The smell of sweat in the gym, feeling the burn after an awesome workout with my fellow teammates, the unbelievable passion and drive to win every point, every game. And after watching my Alma-Mater just beat my home state's team in the 1st round of the NCAA tournament I am that much more taken back to those days. I know I shouldn't live in the past but on this night I am living in those memories that I will cherish forever. And somehow, some way I will figure out a way to incorporate my past life into my present in some form or another. We'll let God steer me on that one because right now I am too busy being a mom! ;)

Random Thought 2.
I have been battling whether or not to blog about "x" and for a while I thought I had jinxed "x" because I hadn't mentioned it yet but today "x" did a lot better and so now of course I'm worried that if I do blog about it then I will jinx it. So I won't. That's all I'll say about that. ;)

Random Thought 3.
Tonight I was reminded by someone I am close to how easy God works though us. Simple acts you think no one notices can help someone else and for that I am Thankful. I am reminded that it is not "OUR" plan but "HIS" plan and that we have to trust in that and He WILL take care of us even when we don't understand it. If only this came more naturally. It sure would alleviate a lot of stress wouldn't it?!

Random Thought 4.
I am so super duper excited for Christmas this year. We have had a lot going on lately and I can't wait to get on an airplane (with 2 boys by myself . . .eeeek!)and get to Omaha and then down to KC. Jeremy won't be joining us until the 23rd and we will miss him like crazy but I am beyond ready to be there. With all that has been going on I am not quite in the full Christmas Spirit as I want to be with my little guys. I am working on it and it will for sure be on once we get there! I can't wait!